Happy beginning of the work week everyone. The young man and I spent all weekend apart so it was a must that the family had a little outing after dinner. We snapped a few pictures after a quick visit to Sonic for my usual ice tea and his usual vanilla shake.

So here is What We Wore:

Young Man’s Look: Shirt: Target shorts, Shoes: H&M

My Look: Striped shirt: UO, Patterned pants: UO, Blazer: H&M, Shoes: Fergie Sunnies UO, Earrings: F21

What I’ve been Thinking: Last night, I was under the spell of my usual toss and turn Sunday night sleep patterns, when I couldn’t help but have a grown up talk with myself. I struggle with one topic a lot: I truly, honestly and consistently can’t tell which is and should be more important, others or myself. Do I agree with or deplore objectivism? Do I always watch out for myself or keep others best interest at heart? I have never come to a definitive answer. I am a mom (obviously) and it’s never a question putting that little boy in the #1 position of important. The struggle is the #2 position. This goes deeper than holding the door for a stranger, turning off my cell phone in a movie, or being polite in a general way. A lot of this feeling is because I can’t control the things that I like to remain worthy in the eyes of the people whose opinions I respect. And when I find myself smack dab in the middle of confrontation or disagreement with someone I care for or respect, I get defensive. As if I need to protect myself, as if I’m the only one I can ever worry about. I’ve heard so many people say “do what’s best for you” and is that always the best answer? I can’t always trust my reaction to people I care about so how do I change that and when is thinking of myself too much? Putting others feelings before mine or always protecting mine? Still no definite answer even after writing these thoughts out. I would love to hear your opinion.